Random

I hate jello. Green, red, orange, whatever...it's gross.  The texture is just slimy and disturbing. The only thing that can make jello even remotely palatable is some sort of nuts mixed in, and even then, it's just wrong.

Yelling really bothers me. Conflict in general is unpleasant, but sometimes you need to get it out there so you can get over it. Yelling is something else- it makes my blood pressure go through the roof. I'd rather someone just stated what was bothering them so we can work it out than get into a yelling match. Ugh.

I like shoes and jewelry. It took me a long time to become what I consider a girly girl, but now I love high heels, shiny and sparkly necklaces and earrings, and makeup. I think Hermana Gardner from the mission would be proud of me.

I wish I was a better friend, and made more time for the people I care about. Life has gotten busy, and I feel as though many of you don't get enough of my time and caring, and that makes me sad.

I am so glad I live in this time when so many delicious gluten free options are available to me. I don't feel like I am missing out on anything because of the great increase in availability of safe foods, and it's awesome.

This one is personal

And written more as an emotional outlet for myself that for anyone who reads it.

Tonight was extremely depressing and frustrating for me. I was really looking forward to going out (alone) with this guy and just talking to him and getting to know him better. If I'd known how the evening would turn out, I would have stayed at Gabe's. At least then I wouldn't have been stuck in a room with him and a whole group of people watching the game with that chick inserting herself between us. Then, to make it worse, he barely says ten words to me all night, and by the end of it, her head is near, if not on his shoulder. He said he wasn't trying to get out of going to the movies with me, but I'd rather have the bandaid ripped off than have to sit through another evening like tonight, which, by the way, ended with me sneaking out (yes, sneaking out) at 11:50.

Tonight has only reaffirmed that I am an undateable troglodyte.

frustrated

ever have that moment when you're gonna hang out with a guy you like but then you end up in a group with another girl sitting between you? It's very frustrating, especially when doing something would be super obvious and awkward.