TOFD

It is astounding to me how quickly wounds that had almost healed can be ripped open, then have salt rubbed in them. People who I opened myself to and cared about deeply seem to have no trouble acting as though I don't exist, and even if I do, I'm certainly not important. Since they blame me, I can't help but blame myself for being so naïve and making my heart so vulnerable, and for not recognizing that I would be figuratively euthanized the second I walked out the door.

I'm ready to get on with MY life, and have been for awhile. I'm tired...tired of trying to understand when they stopped caring and tired of feeling guilty for doing NOTHING wrong, tired of letting the adversary convince me that I don't deserve to be happy. According to pretty much everyone in my life, I am a good person and am worthy.

I need prayers right now, because the forgiveness and charity I've been working on are fighting against rage and sadness. Thank you to all of you.